Monday, December 15, 2008

Mary's Journal

Oh my Lord, why choose me?

Why should I be the one to carry such a burden and yet such a gift?

I am no one special. A poor young girl who tends to her family and prepares for her wedding and yet your angel visits me with this message.

I am afraid.

I’m afraid I won’t live up to that which you need to be.

I’m afraid of what the people will say.

And, I’m afraid Joseph will no longer want me. What will I do then? Will you take care of me then Father?

Fear has arrested my soul and trapped my breath within my lungs. Everything within me wants to scream “no” to your call. But, how can I turn down the God of heaven and earth?

Since I was a little girl, I have believed in you.

I have remained faithful to your ways every day of my life. To this end, I will lay down my fears and rejoice in that which you have called me to do.

Bear your son.

I will trust in you, Father. I will stand in faith. And I will submit to the will of the Lord.

But, please be with me to calm my fears and point the way, as I cannot do this alone.

-Mary

May the Lord that declares your purpose, also calm your fears that you may submit to his will and rejoice as you walk by faith into your destiny.

6 comments:

Truth4thejourney said...

Good Morning Spring!

What a beautiful glimpse into what may have been going through Mary's mind... I don't know how She did it! I do believe she pulled all of her strength from God.

Sonya

Melanie said...

This brought tears to my eyes this morning as this very week I am entering into a new ministry project and I am a little bit afraid.
May the Lord that declares MY purpose, also calm MY fears that I may submit to his will and rejoice as I walk by faith into MY destiny.
Thanks for this!

Shanita Waters said...

That was awesome... This reminds me of a post I wrote last week entitled "What if it were you". I think you did an excellent job at illustrating what Mary must have felt faced with this task. Is this like "Mary's Letter to the King"? you know I'm loving it.

Be blessed!
Shanita

The Blonde Duck said...

Very moving!

Dead to Self said...

Wow! That is just so timely in my life. Right now so many things are going on and I just hove no idea how things will work out. But I do know that I serve a God that loves me and promises that all things will work in my favor...even the bad things. So in the promise I lay my fears and release the control I so often desire.

Thank you for that reminder.

A Free Spirit Butterfly said...

incredible story, it reads like she confided in you. beautifully written. i wish that i could say that i've known and trusted him since i was a little girl but i was lost. "amazing grace" i've been found!

love, peace and blessings.