Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Silence

In silence I sit as a tug-of-war ensues within my mind. A battle between life’s responsibilities and the destiny God has called me too.

So much to do….

So many to email, call, or just make contact with…

Tumbling class, baseball practice, church, school and social events…

Grocery shopping, household chores and pets

And, I cannot forget the most important thing of all: breakfast, lunch, snacks and dinner as little mouths must be fed…

My destiny lies dormant underneath a canopy of to-do lists. It whimpers under the weight of such a heavy load and yet, I must hope and dream. I must trust God with what He has called me too.

But, does God trust me?

My God has entrusted me with a destiny, just as He has entrusted you. And, He is waiting to see what we will do with it.

Destiny starts as a God given desire, gifting or talent. It’s the dream within our heart. The one that screams this is what you were born to do. When I hear its call, I can either answer or dismiss it.

I answered. And, I called upon God to show me how and what to do with it. Covering the dream with prayer, I waited for the Lord to open the door and show me the next step.

But, in the waiting, I became busy.

I used to say, “I know what God wants me to do, but I have small children and I’m buried in life. It’s hard, but He understands.”

That, however, is no longer good enough. I’ve seen and tasted the things of God. I have heard His call and understand that He is waiting on me.

Well, I’m ready.

I’m ready to stand up and take the challenge. So, today I break the silence and say, “Yes Lord…here am I…send me.”

No matter how hard, no matter how inconvenient, no matter how time consuming, I will pursue the destiny the Lord has called me too.

Today, I return God and His call to the top of my priority list.

Are you ready to answer “yes” to the call? If so, I’d love to hear about it, in hopes of encouraging each other in the destiny of our lives.

12 comments:

B His Girl said...

I have definitely said yes. One of the things I have had to do is eliminate things I ADD to my plate. The enemy wants you distracted. The Lord is SERIOUS about using our gifts. He will help your 'to do' list so you can use you gifts to bring Glory to Him.

Jennifer Pacacha said...

Isn't it funny how vigilant we must be over our 'to-do list' in order for other things not to creep up to the top without us realizing? Keep restructuring my friend - keep writing - but don't forget to feed those little mouths breakfast, lunch, snack, and dinner. :)

Krista said...

did you mention wiping the table and sweeping the floor after every breakfast lunch snack and dinner?

these are great words of encouragement. I'm right there with you in saying "I don't want to wait for conditions to be perfect, I want to be used NOW!!!"

and what I hear in the silence is, pursue Me first and I will bring the rest to you. The more I read and meditate on God's message, the more thoughts I have, which demand to be written down.

I can't wrap my brain around my whole dream at one time. I just tackle each small piece as it is set in front of me, and I trust that God is tending to the big picture of his plan for it all.

Mary Moss said...

Good for you! This is wonderful. I know God will continue to bless your life:-)

Kathy S. said...

I believe that we are living out our destiny in all our daily to-do's. Kind of like Joseph, it seemed like he was not fulfilling destiny when he was a slave and imprisoned, but in fact it all was a part of his destiny.

So keep on baking and cleaning and wiping and writing and smiling and praising and soon you will find...

it's all part of the walk...You are already shining!

Melanie said...

So glad you said, "yes." Others are always blessed when the answer is "yes."
Melanie@Bella~Mella

Dead to Self said...

I said yes almost two weeks ago. I was on my knees in tears with my mentor as she prayed over me. It started when I heard God tell me it was time. Time to let go, time to move forward and stop letting my past hold me back. I had the strongest desire. And in the little room, tears streaming down without pride stopping me, I knew it was time to say yes.

Ever since that moment it's been a wild ride. Good days, bad days, days I'm ready to quit. But quitting will get me no where, so I press on. Saying yes, brings joy to my life, and pain to a wounded heart, but the pain now is only temporary as I begin to heal!!

Ok that's long enough I think...haven't had a chance to journal today so I've got lots stored up lol!

Thy Word Is A Lamp Unto My Feet said...

Such a wonderful post. My spirit resonates with yours - in the midst of all we have to do, the different hats we must wear, our Heavenly Father waits...

I say Yes - Yes- and Yes to His call.

The Blonde Duck said...

I've totally felt overwhelmed the past few weeks too. It's never ending!

tara @ kidz said...

This post reminded me of one of my favorite quotes:

"I know God will not give me anything I can't handle.I only wish He didn't trust me so much."
~Mother Teresa

A Free Spirit Butterfly said...

I am ready to answer his call. I make it my business to find some stillness to hear it. I surely don't want to miss him and miss the opportunity that can lead me to a more purpose filled life.

Love, peace and blessings!

Tea With Tiffany said...

Relate deeply to your heart! Thank you for sharing.