Mary's Journal

Oh my Lord, why choose me?

Why should I be the one to carry such a burden and yet such a gift?

I am no one special. A poor young girl who tends to her family and prepares for her wedding and yet your angel visits me with this message.

I am afraid.

I’m afraid I won’t live up to that which you need to be.

I’m afraid of what the people will say.

And, I’m afraid Joseph will no longer want me. What will I do then? Will you take care of me then Father?

Fear has arrested my soul and trapped my breath within my lungs. Everything within me wants to scream “no” to your call. But, how can I turn down the God of heaven and earth?

Since I was a little girl, I have believed in you.

I have remained faithful to your ways every day of my life. To this end, I will lay down my fears and rejoice in that which you have called me to do.

Bear your son.

I will trust in you, Father. I will stand in faith. And I will submit to the will of the Lord.

But, please be with me to calm my fears and point the way, as I cannot do this alone.

-Mary

May the Lord that declares your purpose, also calm your fears that you may submit to his will and rejoice as you walk by faith into your destiny.